Love, lament & Lullaby

Friday, July 27, 2007 wrong and yet so right

This "forbidden love" seemed doomed before it started,
What wasn't just half flirtation, but ended up becoming whole hearted.
Now I try to make sence of this unique situation!
Through all that we been through, parting can't be our destination.
Yet when I look into your eyes and you smile back at me,
It is like a sight that only the privileged of men should get to see.
And through the rough times you were there to strengthen and give me power,
I just can't see walking away from you just because our courtship was not to be.
Yet I think about you and my heart starts beating fast and my emotions start to bubble,
I know that these feelings inside are going to get my arse in trouble.
Believing you will be here when the buildings fall and the rubble disappears.

Being not only one but a friend lending an ear
That's real to me, you give me an option and do not press the issue!
What is a man to do when he doesn't want to leave but does not want to dismiss you?

If loving you is wrong why does it feel so right?
And if I have to sleep without wishing u goodnight, I don't want to sleep another lonely night
This feeling of pain from being wrong and feeling right
Has my play list on all of the saddest of songs
I'm miserable, incomplete and mad at myself and no one else
Maybe I should do the honorable thing of just being by myself
Urgh!! :)

Friday, June 29, 2007

Love Actually!

Think about the romantic relationships you see going on around you. The real ones, not the guff on TV soaps. How long do most of them last? About six months to two years? This is because those relationships are not based on love. They are based on being in love. The feeling of being in love lasts for about this long: one to two years. If the relationship is taken no further than this, the feeling of being in love will eventually vanish.

Think of being in love as ice on a lake. In winter, we can walk on water from shore to shore. But when summer arrives, the water turns to liquid, and won’t support our weight. The bridge of ice depends on the weather; but we need one that will withstand all seasons. We can use the ice bridge temporarily as we build one that’s more durable: made of wood, brick, or steel. Likewise, we need to use the temporary foundation – being in love – to build a lasting relationship with friendship, respect and trust.

Being in love with someone is an involuntary reaction of mind and body. We see someone that we unconsciously think is our perfect match. Our biochemistry responds, making us feel like we’re walking on air. It is a feeling.

Loving someone is a voluntary act of mind and will. We choose to do what is for another person’s good, instead of what is easiest or more pleasurable for us. This is why parents make their children exercise and eat vegetables – despite the kids’ outbursts: “You’re mean!” “I hate you!”

“I love you” is a statement of choice and promise. To say those three words is to say, “When I have to choose between my desire and your best, I promise to choose the latter.” You may say, but what if my best is opposite to their best? When we’re in a relationship, what is for our best will usually coincide.

Secondly, you might ask, how do you know what’s for their best? Of course we may not know, but even if we mistake what is for their best, we believe it is for their best. It’s still a mistake, but it doesn’t change the essential choice: them or me?

Love is an abstract noun: we can see it only in what people do. This “love” is a stative verb: that is, an action that is repeatedly so consistently that it is almost a default position, a habit.
You might be getting the idea that love means sacrifice. That’s right; it does. You might have the idea that sacrifice hurts. Yes, it does. If it didn’t, it wouldn’t be a sacrifice. But how much a sacrifice hurts depends on what we give up. Do we get rid of a favourite shirt, or our pride? Do we give up a hobby, or a job promotion, or our Sunday sleep-in? How much the sacrifice hurts depends on how much we value it, compared to how much we value the person we love.

Being in love seeks its own pleasure. Love seeks the best for the other person. :)

Monday, June 18, 2007

The Beast Within

Love without guilt,
love without doubt


Don't go near the fire, don't go in the dark
Don't give in to your desire, 'cause he's gonna break your heart.

Let go,
let go!

Forbidden Love

I don't, don't care if it's not right
To have your arms around me
I want to feel what it's like
Take all of you inside of me

In your eyes,
In your smile,
In your kiss,

If I had one wish
Love would feel like this
I know that you're no good for me
That's why I feel I must confess
What's wrong is why it feels so right

If I only had one wish
Love would always feel like this
Wishin' on the stars above
If I only had one dream
This would be more than it seems

Love should always feel like this
Heaven forgive me, never forbid me

Thursday, March 15, 2007

could this be the answer?

"You know you're in love when all you think about when you go to bed is that special someone, when all you do in your spare time is write their name on a peice of paper over and over again, when you're with that special someone, you get butterflies in your stomach and you get all excited. You know you're in love when they walk by and you try not to stare but you can't help it, all you talk about, to your friends, is that special someone; you talk on the phone for hours with the one you love. Listen to me - I would know; I'm in love!"

i ask myself

"Amid the gloom and travail of existence suddenly to behold a beautiful being; and as instantaneously to feel an overwhelming conviction, that with that fair form, our destinies must be entwined, could this be love?"

Monday, October 30, 2006

A Fool's Masquerade

Blinded by what use to be you and I.
My mind won’t believe you’ve said goodbye.
Try as I may, a fools masquerade .
Keeping the faith , seeing what tomorrow brings .
Its my belief pride is the chief cause in the decline of you and I .
With a Christian sense of right and wrong .
The temptation of you keeps my blood running hot .
Your memory keeps knocking .
A front row seat to a fools masquerade .
Try as I may , all I can say .
I can’t get over you .
Living a fools masquerade .

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Hi There...

"When it rains it reminds me of you. Although 2000 miles away is so far I still always walk outside in the rain and kiss it just for you. It never fails me. The rain will always come and I'll always love you. Next time you see a storm on the horizon please don't fear it's just heaven doing me the favor of taking you my kiss. Walk outside and kiss the rain whenever you need me.

Between now and you is a few hundred days, thousands of tears, and a great deal of dreaming. When those few hundred days have passed, when those thousands of tears have been shed, and when I have dreamt a great deal of dreams, I will be with you again, and it will be pure magic."

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

an instant long gone

Once upon a time..."A thousand desires ...such as these....a thousand moments sit this nite on fire, reach out... n u can touch can touch them ....with your silence, you can reach them ....with your lust,

Rivers...........Mountains.............. ..... Rain, I loved Rain as a a lost young man.........empty landscapes bleached by a tired Sun...and then...and then...... suddenly it came like a dark unknown woman...her eyes crouched my silences...her body wraped itself around me ... Pause me.........Hold me.......reach me.....where no man has gone.......crossing the seven seas.....holding the wings of fire.......i fly towards nowhere

Rivers............ mountains............ rains. Streets ..we have never walked on,windows .... we have never opened,Hands..... we have never held,Dreams......we shall never.........never see again. lives we have never lived,hopes we have never realized...Fires we have never lite...

Love.....we shall never.......never make again